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I think my new goal is to push all the sad and negative stuff (hint, her name started with a C) all the way down until I can no longer view it on the front page of my blog and try to post positive things to see. That's the biggest reason I've been absent from blogging, because I can't stand looking at my own blog. I would delete the entries, but that would be like erasing a part of who I am so I can't do that. I can't explain why, but I can't delete it because I think I might need it sometime in the future - like, maybe to articulate my feelings from that specific time period. So, I'm going to leave it the way it is and try just to post, not look - at least until all that stuff is out of easy view for me. As much as I feel I don't deserve to, I know I must try to move on with my life and focus on the positive things to come- that I'm working toward. I'm going to school at Sinclair on financial aid and loans. I do have a loving kitty family, Twilight saved me. Brad and I have made some serious progress in our relationship and our life together (knock on wood). We're eagerly expecting our tax refunds so we can get an XBOX 360 and a couple of games. We're kind of handling our finances. I'm trying to look forward for once in my life - not back... of course - having a blog doesn't exactly denote that, does it? Pff- what can I say -
I'm a living contradiction my friends x