the school of life

I got a random e-mail from that annoying Classmates.com thing about my five year high school reunion. I have no interest in going to it but I visited the site cos it said I could see a list of my graduating class. I was curious to see how many people I could actually remember. It turns out I remember quite a many while others whose names are familiar seem very foggy. Five years. I'll admit I'm ashamed that I haven't gotten very far in life since high school. Most of those people who went to college have probably graduated by now. I read one girl is in the Air Force and loving it. What have I done?

My mom came to pay my Fall Quarter tuition the other day. We actually had a candid discussion and she was way cool. She said that if I had decided I didn't want to continue to go to Wright State she'd support my decision. Of course, this was said at lunch after tuition had already been paid. I told her I felt like everyone thought I was a waste and a disappointment. She told me she didn't think that way. It was really weird. She was so nice. So nice that she took me shopping at Meijer and bought me new towels and pillows and a blanket. WTF? And she gave me like $90 for gas. It was very strange. She was acting kind of strange, nothing like she had been over the last few months. I think she realizes I made certain choices, some I regret, some I stand by. I think she realizes how serious I am about life now and that I finally want to do things right. And I think she also realizes how serious I am about Brad. She knows we love each other and stand by each other. Most importantly, she realizes I'm an adult.

I am an adult. No, I'm not always going to do everything right but I own my mistakes. No one gets it right all the time. My mom even said that, that no one has all the answers. We do the best we can. I feel pretty good about my direction. And I do want to continue at Wright State. It's going to take me forever, but I want to finish what I started five years ago. Besides, if I have to work at Wal*Mart for the rest of my life, I will go insane and someone will probably get hurt.

Peace x