family reunion II

Me: hey you
utopiangirrl: hello
Me: how is it two seconds after I sign on, there you are?
Me: I didn't even have enough time to make myself visible to you
Me:
utopiangirrl: I upgraded my fire wall from zone labs and now there....*giggles to what you typed*
utopiangirrl: there is a setup thing that won't go away for nothing
Me: I hate stuff like that
utopiangirrl: a window setup thing
utopiangirrl: yeah
Me: did you get the pictures?
utopiangirrl: I tried restoring my computer with no luck
utopiangirrl: yeah
utopiangirrl: I saw your mom today
Me: kitties too?
Me: I finally got pictures of Sabbath
utopiangirrl: I asked her what was up with John Deakon (is that how it's spelled?) not being there
utopiangirrl: yep
utopiangirrl: I got those to
utopiangirrl: o
utopiangirrl: TOO CUTE
Me: Mr. Deacon is retired
utopiangirrl: Very pretty kitties
utopiangirrl: what a stickler
Me: he was semi retired for a while and now he's just flat out retired
utopiangirrl: that's what I said to your mom
utopiangirrl: she laughed
Me: I think he was trying to get out after Freddie died
Me: I don't think he ever thought they'd last as long as they did
Me: or be as successful
Me: he's sitting at home collecting royalties while the other guys do the touring thing
Me: the show was FUCKING AWESOME
Me: I'm gonna write up the whole story of our trip from beginning to end in the next couple of days. I just haven't had much leisure time since I worked SIX DAYS IN A ROW.
utopiangirrl: I'm feelin' ya
utopiangirrl: Amy had her surgery
Me: how's she doin?
utopiangirrl: it went well enough
utopiangirrl: she is very sore and she look terrible
utopiangirrl: s
utopiangirrl: looks
Me: did you happen to read my good news?
utopiangirrl: they went thru her belly button
utopiangirrl: yeah
utopiangirrl: very good
Me: I'm not diseased after all
Me: I had myself convinced the Frenchy passed me something nasty
Me: even though that HPV isn't worth the stigma since it's so common
utopiangirrl: well it is good hearing that you are alright now
Me: I guess it's not so common - I don't have it!!
Me: Brad was very relieved to say the least
utopiangirrl: my cat may have a broken leg. I am taking him to the vet tomorrow
Me: what happened?
utopiangirrl: a few days ago Tom had seen him limping and then we hadn't seen him since until today. Dunno what happend. But his leg doesn't look good
Me: poor baby
utopiangirrl: yeah
Me: presently Sabbath is darting back and forth for no reason
utopiangirrl: I was going to get Ben neutred this coming week but plans change
utopiangirrl: hmmm
utopiangirrl: playing?
Me: i guess
Me: sometimes I think he's mentally retarded
utopiangirrl: Mom and I went to Gavyn's little program for school. Gavyn didn't want to go but if he hadn't they would drom a letter grade. which I think is a bunch of bull.
utopiangirrl: drop even
Me: what?
Me: if he didn't do the school program, they'd drop what grade?
Me: they have no right
utopiangirrl: you know...I don't know but it was pretty serious I guess....whatever it was
Me: that's retarded
utopiangirrl: I know
utopiangirrl: that's what I said
Me: I should take a shower... you gonna be on a while?
utopiangirrl: I never heard such a thing
utopiangirrl: I think
Me: k, be back soon
utopiangirrl: i am still trying to get rid of this little setup window
Me: just say good night if you feel like leaving before I get back
utopiangirrl: that isn't even completely there. it only has two buttons on it as to what to do next and when I click on either nothing happens. I can move the window around but I can't right click on it. just pisses me off the more I fuck with the thing.
utopiangirrl: ok
Me: you feel better now?
utopiangirrl: not really
Me: well, I do
utopiangirrl: i have been doing some research on this thing
Me: except Sabbath won't leave me alone
Me: he doesn't seem to understand I don't want him on me right now
utopiangirrl: and according to zone alarm it is not spyware but every spyware guide site I have been to says differently
Me: he won't stop trying to climb right up in my face no matter how many times I redirect him
utopiangirrl: it is called 180search assistant
Me: why does he wanna get right up in my face?
utopiangirrl: when I went to my add or remove thingy all I could find was search assistant. I am not sure if it is the same or just simarlar but if it isn't the same thing it isn't what is being a total pest at the moment. I just don't know
utopiangirrl: maybe he likes your breath
utopiangirrl: effection perhaps
Me: I dunno
Me: he's relentless
Me: it's sweet but annoying
utopiangirrl: Piper sits and stares at me all day
utopiangirrl: either right in front of me or off to the side
Me: his eyes are gettin bad again
utopiangirrl: oh no
Me: I need to find his medicine
Me: and clean him up
utopiangirrl: did the vet ever say what it was
Me: I think it's just allergies
utopiangirrl: oh
Me: he's been like that since we got him and he's not sick as far as we can tell
Me: the vet never said anything
Me: not the one who did the surgeries anyway
Me: he sneezes every now and then
utopiangirrl: I got that brain froud book
Me: which one?
utopiangirrl: the secret sketchbooks of brain froud
utopiangirrl: it's alright
utopiangirrl: I certainly wouldn't say it was the best
utopiangirrl: but it is good to own if your a big fan
Me: I will soon complete my video game collection... for the time being anyway
utopiangirrl: I also got a card with the book with his signiture
Me: I've got Animal Crossing and Kingdom Hearts is fun - and I have God of War and Super Smash Bros. Melee in layaway at the moment
Me: I think that will pretty well have me set
Me: I already have a pretty good variety
utopiangirrl: we got the book from a catalog for books called Bud Plant something rather. a very good catalog. otherwise I wold never have gotten the book because Amazon doesn't have it
Me: that's cool
Me: I'd liek to see that catalogue
Me: *like even
utopiangirrl: there is a website
Me: I'm so pathetic, I'm obsessed with video games
utopiangirrl: no your not
Me: I guess that's what I do now instead of drink
Me: lol
utopiangirrl: it is good
utopiangirrl: lol
utopiangirrl: I wish I could play video games
utopiangirrl: *pouts*
Me: I never go out, I don't see people... I go to work, I come home, I do chores... I play video games
Me: sometimes, we watch tv or movies
Me: but most times he listens to pirated downloads of Howard Tern and I play video games
utopiangirrl: I read and half heartedly play Sims
Me: I miss the regular Sims
Me: the console games can't quite come close to what i had there
utopiangirrl: go to work and clean house but oooh I so don't have a vacuum cleaner
utopiangirrl: anymore
Me: I don't think anything could top what I had going on on there
Me: ours works-ish
Me: this cheap carpet comes up in clumps and clogs it to the point it's hardly usable
utopiangirrl: it bit the dust two days ago
utopiangirrl: my daddy is suppose to look at it but I doubt it will do any good this time.
Me: we need to shampoo this carpet big time
utopiangirrl: I really need to get Ben to the vet. He is worst that a female cat in heat. He cries and coohs, especially at night.
Me: I tried to clean some tonight
utopiangirrl: we need a new carpet period
utopiangirrl: and new floor
utopiangirrl: new walls
utopiangirrl: hell
utopiangirrl: a new house would be nice
utopiangirrl: but I am glad that we have a house at all
Me: well, same here but I think we'd get evicted if the management here saw what we've done to it
utopiangirrl: so I won't complain to much
utopiangirrl: lol
utopiangirrl: I know what you mean
Me: yeah, I'm happy to have a roof over my head
Me: too
Me: I don't know what happened to my too, it didn't make it in that line for some reason
Me: I figure I
Me: shit
Me: damn enter key
Me: I figure I
Me: fuck
Me: why does the apostrophe have to be right next to the enter key
Me: ?
utopiangirrl: lol
Me: anyway, I figure I'll get my mom to come up with one of her magic shampooers and we'll kick some dirt ass in this joint
Me: at least with these video games I'm getting/have gotten the $20 markdowns
utopiangirrl: damn it. I can't delete the muther-fucker from my computer
Me: I pretty much won't spend more than that on a video game anymore
Me: no way to uninstall? maybe you should have Tom fool with it some
utopiangirrl: I think I will do that
Me: we think our computer might have a virus
Me: it acts funky sometimes
utopiangirrl: I will just have to wait til tomorrow after he gets off work
Me: well, I'm tired for some reason
Me: maybe cos I was out all day, at my mom's
Me: btw, after 2 glorious years of no contact, I have to call my dad
Me: he's calling my mom now and bothering her
utopiangirrl: April first I will have had this computer for a whole year. It isn't the same. It's not 100% perfect anymore
Me: if I don't contact him, he'll keep bothering her
Me: i know how you feel
Me: I just don't know what I'm going to say to him... or how
utopiangirrl: do you know how he has been or where he has been for that matter?
Me: cos I still choose not to have a relationship with him, I washed my hands of the whole thing 2 years ago
Me: he's in a facility now
utopiangirrl: ok, I wasn't sure if anyone had told you
Me: but he'll only be there for 6 months typical
Me: I wish they'd just lock him up and keep him somewhere
utopiangirrl: I have known since the day Lorretta called the cops on him
Me: i could almost tolerate him if he was medicated and at least fake normal
Me: she called the cops? I didn't hear this
utopiangirrl: once upon a time.....but oh how things do change and not always for the best as it would seem
utopiangirrl: yeah
utopiangirrl: cause you know, he was living with her
Me: that wasn't the version he gave my mom... but I guess that's to be expected, that he would lie
Me: yeah, I knew
utopiangirrl: he flipped out one day and all I know she had to call the cops.
Me: I don't mean to sound like an uncaring bad daughter, but I'd be happy if he would just leave me alone and let me get on with my life like he never existed
Me: I have my reasons
Me: I know that's hard for everyone to understand
utopiangirrl: my mom told me the whole thing one night but I don't know what happened, like it just went in one ear and out the other. I guess all I need to know is that he is ok and those around him are ok and I just go on....I don't dwell on it.
utopiangirrl: it is the same story over and over
Me: I know
utopiangirrl: we all know it by heart
Me: and that's why I don't want anything to do with him anymore
Me: I don't like getting dragged back into it over and over again
Me: and I know he's gonna guilt me right back into that vicious cycle again, like always
utopiangirrl: I love him cause he is my uncle but....well what is a person to do? Just move on
Me: I honestly don't know how I feel anymore
Me: i know I feel sorry for him
Me: and I wish things could have been different
Me: but all my efforts were futile
Me: and he just ends up dragging me into his paranoid delusions and making me crazy.
utopiangirrl: all I know is that he is safe where he is for now and how I do hope that one day he will be better and stay better but I won't get my hopes up so I just go with the flow and move on
Me: I just wish they'd keep him in a facility
Me: he's good when he's in a place like that
Me: he has people around him, he's made to take his meds
utopiangirrl: I wish he never left that one place
Me: one can almost carry on a coherent conversation with him
Me: I know
utopiangirrl: it just seems he took a few too many steps back when he left that place
Me: it all went to hell from there
Me: there was hope then
utopiangirrl: yeah
utopiangirrl: and it was good
Me: he may never get back there again, to being almost normal
utopiangirrl: it is hot in here
Me: I just figure, he never directly had a positive effect on my life, always negative - and why would I want to put myself in a position where I know I'm always gonna be buried in negative crap?
Me: his negative crap
utopiangirrl: I understand what you are saying
Me: and that's why I never called him back after that big fight we had
Me: and let it go
Me: it was a terrific weight lifted off of me
utopiangirrl: I can put myself in your place, though I wish it wasn't so....because it is a damn shame that things are the way they are for you and him. but that is truth and sometimes it hurts. I am sorry that you don't have a father and daughter realationship with you father like most do or like I have with my daddy. It makes me sad for you but I do understand. I just with it weren't so. That life wasn't cruel.
utopiangirrl: but you have us
Me: yep
Me: only good thing to come out of all of it - though I have to say - you are the only one who understands
utopiangirrl: well, I am a very understanding person, so i have been told.
utopiangirrl: don't judge a person until you have walked a mile in their shoes
Me: moccasins even
utopiangirrl: lol
utopiangirrl: yeah
Me: I don't think I spelled that right
utopiangirrl: I think you did
Me: I sleepy
Me: methinks
Me: it lazy time'
Me: goddamn apostrophe, popping up where it's not supposed to
Me: nice icon
utopiangirrl: thanks
utopiangirrl: the picture sparkles
Me: it doesn't on here, but it's still cool
utopiangirrl: I created a wallpaper out of it and an icon
utopiangirrl: yeah
Me: I'm gonna get off here and eat a candy bar
utopiangirrl: eat a milky way
utopiangirrl: you seen the comercial?
Me: I have peanut butter twix
Me: only thing I miss about the dorms - vending machines right downstairs
utopiangirrl: I wish a lady would pop out of my candy bar and tell me I was a buffet of womanlyness
utopiangirrl: lol
Me: I haven't seen tha one
Me: *that
utopiangirrl: too cute
Me: well, good night my dear
utopiangirrl: ok
utopiangirrl: nite
Me: twas good to catch up a little
Me: 'night deary
utopiangirrl: